My party day was a success J
Firstly A came with GF, who turned out to be nothing to be envied of. She’s pretty but according to L (and I concur), she is also very stuffy. Didn’t speak a word to anyone and was so terribly clingy. She was practically throwing herself at her boyfriend throughout the evening. She makes me feel claustrophobic by looking at her. Meowww J
In fact Serena and I concluded that A’s bff doesn’t approve of the GF either, that’s why he has been asking me to join him, his Mrs, and A ; just the 4 of us – to London for their good friend’s wedding. Conveniently leaving or ignoring A’s gf in the equation. Lol. A is a really eligible bachelor (if he is single that is) – he doesn’t smoke, is very nice, religious, smart, rich, a gentleman… and best of all we really click J perfect except that he’s taken. Hmm….
Mr C didn’t come; he had to rain-check at the last minute because of a family commitment. I was a tad disappointed and a tad relieved at the same time. At least those 3 guys couldn’t gang up and goss about me J I am disappointed because I was really looking forward to meet him. Sigh… maybe he’s just not that into me huh? Poor me.
Mr B was here, looking every inch the rock star that he is in skinny black jeans – pulling it off pretty well too! Everyone can see he was doting over me, which is sweet. However it’s also possible that he was keeping close to me because I was the only one he knows at the party!
He was the last to leave and he called me when he reached home. Wanted to know how I got over my ex fiancée so soon – I guess it’s his subtle way to ask for tips on how to get over his ex gf (told u so the guy’s on a rebound! not that he mentioned it, but it is pretty obvious isn’t it?).
For the first time in a long time I recounted the traumatic chapter in my life. I surprised myself by choking up tears when I talked about it, especially when recounting some ugly incidents when he punched and bruised me. I guess some scars are taking longer to heal…. If ever.
One thing’s for sure, I know that I am over him. He was such a jerk and I know I deserve someone much better. It’s not that hard too to find someone better – as long as that person doesn’t hit me, he’s already someone way much better! J
I also discovered a few things that empowered me : that I have a very strong network of support system around me – my family, my bffs, and God. They all helped me see the light and given me the courage to move on. I can even jog now at what used to be “our” path, because now I don’t care about him anymore. Whatever happens, I don’t give a damn about him, don’t care, and never will again. I can live without him and that realization is empowering J
Mr B said “I adore your patience and your strength in getting through it” Wow. Against my better instinct (hello, this guy is still in rebound phase!) I felt a tingle in my heart when he said that J
Confession: I must admit that I do miss my ex’s company though. Especially when it comes to grocery shopping.
This morning when I went to do my grocery shopping for the Party, I loaded so many things in the shopping cart.
The store prohibits us from taking the cart to the parking lot, so normally, in my past life what I did was guard the cart in front of the store while my (ex) fiancée would take the car and drove it up to the store front where I would be waiting. Then we would load the bags into the trunk together.
This morning I totally forgot about not having a fiancée until I stepped out of the store with my loaded to the brink cart. That’s when I realised “Shit, I can’t take this back to the car and I can’t leave it here either. So much for independence!”
I had to double back to the store, look for a security guard and pleaded for him to help guard the cart while I go and fetch my car. That was embarrassing. Felt like a real loser. Especially when there were other women (and men) beside their carts, no doubt waiting for their partners to fetch them in some fancy car. And here I am, struggling on my own with a guard to keep my poor lonely cart company! And did I mention it was raining heavily too? Yuks.
I so need a bf! Good Lord, please give me one now… I really need him especially when I grocery shop! Amen.
Despite that minor hiccup, I am happy to report that the party was fantastic, everyone (except the GF) got along well with each other, mr A and Mr B did not become bffs or swap goss abt me (phew), and everyone left with a full tummy and a happy heart J
Next up – I need to start planning a way to go out with Mr C without asking him out. Makes sense?
Ps: my bff L is super scared right now that she may be preggie! Oh noes. She so can’t get pregs yet bec we have a girlie trip planned for next June. Whatever happens she must plan around that plan. After a few SOS session in the kitchen at the Party, we finally found a cure – L recommended a pill that will help ensure she is clean (don’t ask me what it is or even if it is morally acceptable. It sounds a good plan at the time J) We’ll keep you updated!
Xoxo
B
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